Free Verse: Wish You Were Here
The scene in the picture makes me wonder
Did you do the same thing, once?
Or want to, wish you could, if you only had the chance?
Or did you always know that he would give you so much more than just a second glance?
If only you still had the chance
To find out...
I stand there, where you should be... sitting, at least
I think she gave up wishing you could stand, somewhere along the way.
I stare at the pictures, the ones on her walls... your walls,
Or they were, in my mind, when it was your house, before it hurt to think of it that way.
and I stand there with your mum in her front hall... your front hall...
I don't let it show but to me, somewhere, it is still your house, and she is still your mum...
There was a time when I might have been there with you...
If I had only made the time then, but now, at least, I do...
Now I am there for her, with her...
Opening what she still calls your e-mail...
If only it was... if only you could read it, I'd fill it with jokes...
But the letters she gets in it now make me want to cry.
And her phone books, they have been the same, since our numbers filled them in nursery
school...
She has kept your friends, as what they were to you
They are still where you put them in her phone books...
I laugh with your sister...
Your dad... well the only one that matters, but I never found out what you thought of that...
What would you think of him now?
He makes me smile, and I wish I had known him then... when I got to meet you once a week...
I think you knew him then, but now I'll never know...
Because I sit there with them as they all make me smile...
I know you could be watching me now...
But all I can do is wish you were here... there... in that room... with them... because What am I
doing there without you?
Only feeling like it is where you should be...
And then I wish I could go back to the time
Before my time had to change.
Then I wonder... if we still met there, where we used to meet,
Would you want to meet me there... or anywhere?