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desirable. Like despite its transphobic nature, one thing that trap-related memes do is
portray trans women in a desirable light, really… But the downside of the term trap is
that that beauty, that attractiveness, that passing-ness, those desirable qualities are framed
by that type of meme as a trap, like you're trying to fool this guy into buying them dinner
or taking them on a date. And then, "Ha ha, I actually have a dick. Joke's on you." Which
is bad, because gay panic laws are not really a thing anywhere. So that kind of tends to
encourage violence with that narrative.
However, despite the downside of “trap culture'', it did lead Lilly to one of her most-used social
websites, Discord. Discord in particular is popular among trans women, with Lilly jokingly
calling it a trans women’s dating site. She mentioned the connection between this and 4chan trap
culture as well, saying
There's a big overlap between the gamer demographic and trans women demographic.
Very few trans women I know do not play games. Like almost, like pretty much every
trans woman I know, except for one, has logged a hundred hours in five or six different
games… And then they're on Discord, and they're all like, "Hey, we're gaming, and we're
playing with each other, let's just make a server for it." And then other people start
joining the server and, yeah. So you can find Discord invites in really weird places. For a
long time, the primary Discord server that I was in, I found it because it had posted a
link... It was a Discord server that was mostly focused around femboys, trans women, and
the unfortunate term, traps. That was my primary Discord server for a long time, and the
link for it I found on 4chan on their /d/ board.
/d/ is a pornography board dedicated to hentai and other alternative forms of pornography -
hence its connection to “trap” subculture, which is heavily rooted in hentai. Hentai, which is
Japanese anime and manga pornography, is as a result closely connected to anime culture more
generally. It’s no coincidence, then, that Lilly mentioned the most popular memes being “Head
pats, UwU.”
She went on to explain that
I think part of that is like a lot of us trans women were like growing up as a guy in that
era and like, we can't be cute, because we're boys, and now we're like, "Well, that was
wrong." So we can be cute, so we're going to be cute. And it's really emotionally
gratifying to patient's someone's head and be like, "You're adorable, OwO." Or have your
head pat be called adorable, OwO.
UwU girl culture is directly related to anime culture. UwU is a Japanese emoticon meant to look as if the two U’s
are closed eyes and the w is a mouth. This type of emoticon is associated with kawaii culture. UwU as a more
general term is associated with cute, feminine nerd-girl culture, including anime, manga, and video game
subcultures.